Why bully somebody?? Why not just be there friend?? I mean, bullying means guilt and shame, (if your not a narccasist) and possibly humility for yourself. Being a friend seems so much better... I mean, laughter, joy, and happiness comes from it. But, its up to you how you want your life to be, and if you chose the negative way, dont make others suffer. Being friends just make the world a better, happier place!! So, Ill be gour friend!!!
Thursday, January 26, 2017
Tuesday, January 17, 2017
Why do bad things happen to such good, loving, caring, warm-hearted people? I just don't get it. Its so scary. Why must the worst thi gs happen to the best people? Im trying to figure this out because i sure as hell dont want to lose anymore of my loved ones right now or see my loved ones hurt, either emotionally or physically. I know i just got to stay positive, but how do you do that when your in shock and confusion? Any imput?
Monday, January 16, 2017
Its been a rough few days for me. Found out some scary news about a family member. Which im not comftorable getting into detail yet at this point. Also, havig issues witj a family member understanding my mental illness. I have so many mixed emotions, its out of control. I just have to remember that God is with me and he is watching over me and my loved ones. Trials are hard, its the way you handle it, and i think im handling them pretty damn well. Im praying, im seeking out help from my support team, and im thinoin positive. For thkse of you who beleive there is a God, please keep me and my family in prayers!!
Saturday, January 14, 2017
My name is Jenna
I'm from Las Vegas, NV
I have Borderline Personality Disorder, PTSD, ADD/ADHD, Panic Disorder, Chronic Clinical Depression, Anxiety, Eating Disorders, and I also struggle daily with selfharm.
I've been aware of mental illness since I was 10 because I was sent to a psychward but I have had it ever since I was young.. the first signs started to show when I was 7.
Yes, I have tried therapy. When I was 12 I was sent to a long term treatment center that was located out of state where I lived for 1 year and 21 days. That program was completely centered around DBT. I have been going to therapy ever since but I have recently started CBT. Overall I wouldn't say it really helped me but it did teach me some good skills and ways I can try to manage my emotions.
My coping skills are listening to music, taking walks, colouring, writing, drawing, playing with slime, deep breathing, and sometimes talking with a friend.
Yes, I have a support system. My family and friends. My boyfriend used to be my main support system but we have broken up recently.
Yes, I am not the only one who struggles with mental illness in my family. We are all aware, understanding, and supportive of eachother.
Mental illness has made my life extremely difficult. The obstacles I face can be so overwhelming. I am being pulled from school because my Panic Disorder is so intense. I cannot order my own food. All of my relationships have gone down hill. It seems my life is constantly spiraling out of control.
In 10 years I hope to be married with children and be working as a preschool teacher.
-Holding onto anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing at at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.
-Sometimes the prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets. The prettiest eyes have cried the most tears. And the kindest hearts have felt the most pain.
-One day! Someone will walk into your life and make you see why it never worked out with anyone else.
-Love your body. Let your mind wonder. And let yourself be the person you secretly always wanted to be.
-As i look back at my life. I realize that everytime I thought I was beong rejected from something good, i was actually being redirected to something better.
-Happiness is a choice, not a result. Nothing will make you happy until you choose to be happy. No person will make you happy until you decide to be happy. Your happiness will not come to you. It can only come from you.
-You can never cross the ocean unless you have the courage to lose the sight of the shore!!
In my opinion, bullying should be unacceptable and not tolerated amywhere amd everywhere. In my experience, i have noticed that that is not how society looks at it. Bullying happens everywhere, such as; schools, (any level), work, on the streets, and other public places. I think it is ridiculous that some of these places I named allow it.
From my personal experience at school, work, and just walking down the streets, people are very cruel and get away with bullying very easily. For example, i was bullied all through middle school abd highschool. When i would report it to teachers and the principal, i would get responses back like, "just ignore it," "Don't listen to them," and sadly, "There's nothing we can do about it". So when it got to the point where i was told there is nothing they could do about it, my parents and I went to the school board/administrative team... still, nothing was being done or changed to prevent it or at least decrease it. After that, i went to the police several times, and was told, "they aren't physically harming you, so you'll just have to let it go!" And then these people i have went to for help, wonder why i keep being admitted to hospitals for depression, and still don't help change anything. So yea, because of the intense, nonstop bullying, i became depressed and at somepoints suicidal and/or a danger to myself.
I knew better then to fight back because i knew then somethinv would happeb, but to both the bully or bullies and me... sometime i regret not fighting back, just to at least get some sort of justice. But i did not want to be a bully myself, so didn't.
So just for the record, whenever i see, or if i do see bullying happening in the future, i willl damn straight, call you out on it and give you a peice of my mind, but not anything like bullies do. So little peice of advice, Do Not Bully People...
"Treat unto others the way you want to be treated"
--THE GOLDEN RULE!!
I believe that in order to improve your self and mental illness, you have to try and put effort in to it. In my case, that means; listening and acknowledging others' inputs, going to therapy and psych appointments, getting involved with a recovery community or positive crowd, take my medication as prescribed, and take care of yourself in general, such as: hygienic, physically, and mentally. What I mean by mentally is, do not let people walk all over you and use you, stand up for yourself!! Do not let others decide your emotions by what they say or think about you, be you!
If you want to improve yourself and your mental illness, you have to want to improve it. It's not just something that will happen, especially over night. It takes time.
Another way to improve you and your mental illness is, have a support system/team. You can't do this alone, you need friends and family. If you don't have family, create those relationships with people that are family like.
Anyways, this is what I am doing to improve myself and my mental illness. It IS hard, but I know I can do it and I know you can too!!!